My Bio: About Suzanne
On March 11, 2013 my husband called me from work. He was sick. He was heading to the hospital emergency. “Don’t meet me there,” he said. “I’ll be o.k.” I keep to my schedule. but by evening I was frantic. He wasn’t answering his cell phone. I didn’t know which hospital he was at. Finally he called. He had been examined. I went there and waited.
This was the beginning of our Journey which ended, for him, on June 8, 2013. And my life, as I knew it, was gone from that moment on. Half of me died with him. And I began to learn the real meaning of life, living, and trying to survive through a horrible grief journey.
I started blogging about the hospital – Hospital Diaries – but became too drained to finish. Then it was about life without him – After He Was Gone. Now, sometimes, I blog about other things in my life but it is always an evolution as I walk (sometimes clawing) that path through the grief journey .
In North America we don’t talk about death, so when it happens close to home we are without any tools to cope as the survivors of a tragedy. Writing has helped me through this journey, but I’ve also found it has also helped others who have lost loved ones, or are going through the process of living with impending death. Some people just say they’re thinking about it now. What happens if the person they love most dies? It puts a totally different spin on how you relationship that person, what you say and do, because even if you try to deny it death is a part of life. There’s not way that you won’t lose them some day, or they might lose you. It’s painful but reality. And the most painful journey of your life.
So I share my journey with those who want to read about it. It’s been filled with horrible grief and crying but also good moments many amazing revelations. Despite the pain of living without him, this was Bob’s gift to me, and hopefully for you too.